I try not to indulge in self pity often. Our family circumstances might not be easy, but I know others are in an even worse position. I try to keep busy and not think about it too hard.
Sometimes, however, it does just hit me. After two weeks of full on caring and juggling during half term, I am exhausted. I have been suffering from frequent hand tremors so have cut down on caffeine. That has helped a little but I suspect it is medication, prescribed by my doctor, which is causing this. My head is woolly but is that the stress or just my hormones?
Yesterday my sister called. There is a big age gap between us and although we get on fine, we are not particularly close. After a long chat she said 'You never have it easy, do you?' which is exactly what a friend had said on the phone just a few weeks ago. I felt like crying.
Then today I was watching 'This Morning' about the lack of support for parents of disabled children and it hit home again. I'm going to spend the rest of the day wallowing in self pity and sod the work. Bring on the chocolate!