Yesterday I finished my first run through of the book. I've actually made quite a few changes. No major surgery, but lots of little tweaks and I know there will be many more to come. I've spotted a few inconsistencies, mainly caused by me fiddling a little with my original planned timeline part way through the first draft. I've tried to enhance the language a little.
All that has led to yet another major crisis of confidence. These seem to be happening roughly weekly at the moment, as I read through what I've written and think it's rubbish. Maybe that's one of the downsides of having studied creative writing, you actually have a good idea of what you are trying to achieve, even if you can't always put it into practice. Maybe it makes me too perfectionist.
Can you be too too perfectionist? I think possibly you can, because it can prevent you ever letting go of your work and sending it out into the big wide world. On the other hand, I keep telling myself this story has been a long time in the making, it is one which is intensely personal and I only have one shot with it. It deserves to be the best I can make it and that is a huge responsibility.
This morning I received a link to this article on editing, which I think I shall use in my next run through. It encapsulates so many of the things I already knew, all on one easy to check page.
So, today it will be back to the beginning. Eek.